A little better

Today is shaping up a little better than yesterday was. It's still early- usually nights are worse for me- but I take times like this as they come. I appreciate all the feedback from you guys, as well as all the support. It really does help to know that other people out there feel for me.

Days like this make me think that maybe I could slog through till January. Maybe things will be different in December. November was unique because we had our big rural tour last week , the debates this week, and Thanksgiving next week. But december it looks like calling and house parties. The plan I formulated when I woke up this morning was to get through this week, take TG to formulate my letter of resignation, and turn it in on Monday giving one week's notice. And I guess that still is my plan. But it is my perogative... I could just come back to work with that letter in my back pocket to see if things get bad again.

Then again, why would I want to stay any longer with a place that won't let me go to church if we have an event? Who didn't try to stop me or work something out when I mentioned I might quit?

It's later in the day now and I'm actually feeling kind of good because Jess is here from Reno. She's just as miserable as I am and has actually been here longer. We were talking about how miserable we are... and she said that if I could stay through to the end, I should. We went out to look for folders for press packets during call time and at first we were like, will we get in trouble? And then we were like, well, what will they do- fire us? We were ok. She and Andy are staying at the El Cortez... one of my fav. spots in Vegas, so I might hang with them there tonight.

Maybe I'll keep that letter in my back pocket.